Reflections on my inner and outer worlds.

My Thoughts

Venting Thoughts (4/3/2015)

So I feel really bad. I feel completely terrible. I’ve been facing some problems lately. And they have been making me upset. I’ve been trying to ignore them, but it’s hard to. Because of this, I forgot all about one of my close friend’s birthday. I feel really bad and upset cause I forgot about his birthday. I started crying because I was so caught up in my problems that I forgot about his birthday. And it made me even more upset cause I forgot about his birthday. I haven’t told him why I forgot because I don’t want him to think I’m just making up excuses. I just feel really, really bad. I feel like I made him upset, too. I don’t really expect any replies to this. I was just wanting to vent somewhere.


National Coming Out Day and My Thoughts

So… Hey guys. Today is October 11, 2014 and it is currently 9:44pm. Today is, in case you didn’t know, National Coming Out day. I understand that not everyone is in favor of gays and lesbians and stuff. (I can’t think of the name or word to group all non-straight people together. Sorry. x.x Please no hate.)

But I am, I’m an ally. I support those people. I feel they all should have the right to marry who they love and be with who they love without judgement. It’s not bothering me any. Although, there is still much judgement in the world. But it’s not my problem to know if two men are together or a person is getting one of those surgeries things to transition from one gender to another. That isn’t bothering me any, so why should it be such a bother to those who aren’t even in that position? It’s kind of dumb, in my opinion.

But, I’m trying to keep my thoughts logical and nice. XD

I am an ally.

Now, I feel like I should tell a secret that you may not know of me. I’m not entirely sure if what I am is right though. I’m still a little confused about it.

But as far as I know, I’m pansexual. I’m proud to be pansexual, although I’m scared of judgement from being it. x.x I mean, sure I’m fine with people knowing, but I’m scared of how they’d react. Y’know what I mean?

Plus it’d be kind of weird for me to be pansexual and not be an ally. XD

I don’t know if this would mean much to you guys who follow my blog. I just feel like I need to bring more confidence in myself and being more open since I’m like a tightly closed chest that’s hard to crack.

I admit, it’s very hard for me to trust others with my thoughts and opinions. But I know I need to be more trusting with others. So I’m trying, baby step by baby step. But yeah.

For those that do care about something like this of mine and aren’t that judging of stuff like this, thanks. I just felt like I needed to say this. It’s currently 9:59pm. I think this is as much as I can write. Thanks to those who read this though.